Christine Nicole

Classes are going well. I am le happy. I've finally decided to challenge myself more. if only i could say the same for music. i want to be as good as jimi hendrix someday. hopefully soon. and i want to be really good at pedal steel. and i need to get a new string for my violin so i can start playing it again. and there is still a trumpet in the corner of my room. i don't play it. i don't think i ever will either. same goes with my djembe. sad.
it's still snowing. so if i ever run out of water i can jsut go outside and eat the snow. it looks good too.
i got this cat power shirt at urband for 5 dollars. and a sonic youth one and a B&S one. i have to poop.

bye

life sucks
who woulda ever thought...

link to my new music myspace.

http://www.myspace.com/rawwrrrrrrrrrrrr

new songs. new sound.

the one thing i can't have.
Maybe i should try a little harder to forget about it.

i am home. woo.
i hope it snows alot. then i can laugh at the stupid fuckers in their vehicles trying to drive. haha.

ok bye

Winter break has been gay as hell. I've gotten nothing done. I miss writing stuff, so I might write more. But not on myspace because i do not like writing on myspace. I was reading my old entries and realized how much of a douche i was. i was a big douche. so this year i'm starting over and i'm gonna try to not piss myself off as much. so i'm gonna make a list of shit i need to stop doing or tone down on. because if i don't i will jsut end up pissing myself off more than if i hadn't written it down. did that make sense? let's start there.
1. start making more sense. no one wants to talk to the bitch who goes on and on about shit no one gets.
2. stop obsessing. i know, i know, it's my personality. i am naturally obsessive. but perhaps i could work on toning it down. i mean, being obsessive on all levels is really getting old.
3. stop trying so hard. i figure all my heroes didn't actually try to succeed. they jsut did what they loved and they were good at it. success came naturally. if i do what i love, and i don't think about it, maybe i will be happier.
4. stop comparing yourself to other people. it's weird. I was born blue and screaming, and i'm pretty sure it's not gonna change... no but i was literally born blue. i couldn't breath because of my fucked up respiratory system. weird you say? i do so agree.
5. study this time around. FOR FUCK'S SAKE LISTEN TO THIS ONE IT'S IMPORTANT.
6. i can't think of a number six, but when i do i'll be sure to write it down.
7. play guitar more. stop complaining about sucking. do something about it.
8. stop wearing your heart on your sleeve. no one wants to know how you're feeling or how shitty your life is. get over it.


that is all.

i don't want to die.
there's no music when you're dead.



i think the word to describe how i'm feeling right now: bittersweet.
i'm over it, but i don't want to be.

that jackie greene song is a very good song to listen to right now.


"Everything's clearer when you're not here. I love you more when you're walking away."

i got a franz ferdinand tattoo on my ankle last night. i'm going to be adding more to it when i get money. either the lyrics "what's wrong with a little destruciton?" or "it's always better on holiday"
it hurts so gooood!

getting my nose job in 7 hours. AHHHHHHHHHHHHFUCK!

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IndieBandGroupie: o rly?
AquaChess400: i have been so tired lately, i cant wait till i can sleep in for once
IndieBandGroupie: o rly?
IndieBandGroupie: too much buttsecks can really wear one out
AquaChess400: did you know there are coffee flavored PEZ? wierd...
IndieBandGroupie: OMGZ
IndieBandGroupie: srzly?
AquaChess400: so what are you doing right now?
IndieBandGroupie: peeing in buttz
AquaChess400: yea...
IndieBandGroupie: oh you are too?
AquaChess400: do u still live with your praents?
IndieBandGroupie: no. i live with my boyfriend, guin
IndieBandGroupie: she is a guinea pig
AquaChess400: u sure? lol
IndieBandGroupie: you are sure?
IndieBandGroupie: lol?
AquaChess400: u ok over there? lol
IndieBandGroupie: nah. i'm choking
AquaChess400: have you tried the new coke with lime? it's pretty good
IndieBandGroupie: no. i don't do coke with lime. i just do straight coke lines. from my smiths albums
AquaChess400: coke? naw I like pepsi more
IndieBandGroupie: pepsi doesn't keep me up for days without eating
IndieBandGroupie: so i dont like it
AquaChess400: :-P
IndieBandGroupie: ya thats what i feel like after a couple days on coke
AquaChess400: pepsi is way better than ocke
IndieBandGroupie: cock?
IndieBandGroupie: no i prefer cock
AquaChess400: a mans pride?
IndieBandGroupie: yes
IndieBandGroupie: his jewels
AquaChess400: thats good
IndieBandGroupie: ya
IndieBandGroupie: do you like to get yours punched?
AquaChess400: oh ok
IndieBandGroupie: is that a yes?
AquaChess400: what do u think?
IndieBandGroupie: i think it's a yes
AquaChess400: really?
IndieBandGroupie: everyone loves to get punched in their family jewels every noew and then
AquaChess400: i have been so tired lately, I cant wait till I can sleep in for once
IndieBandGroupie: you already said that
IndieBandGroupie: so i know already
IndieBandGroupie: idiot
AquaChess400: we were discussing u -- not me
IndieBandGroupie: you are saying i get to sleep in and im tired?
IndieBandGroupie: bc im not tired
IndieBandGroupie: and i sleep in every day
AquaChess400: Hell yea
IndieBandGroupie: hell no cracka
AquaChess400: nope
IndieBandGroupie: yep
IndieBandGroupie: nig
AquaChess400: alrighty
IndieBandGroupie: ya
IndieBandGroupie: wait
AquaChess400: alrighty
IndieBandGroupie: alright
AquaChess400: all is well
IndieBandGroupie: yes
AquaChess400: ok then
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it is morning and i had a dream last night about cookies. yes, cookies. specifically the nutty chocolate chip ones from panera. in this dream i went with my dad and maria to the cookie store. i got 3 nutty ones and decided to be brave and try some weird cookies too. so i had six cookies all together. i get the checkout line and the wee mexican lady told me these cookies were 20 bucks. so i pay but am a bit disappointed in my gluttony. whatev. so i was like "dad, can you possibley pay me the other half back for my cookie purchasing spree?" and he was all like "ya, dude." and instead he handed me a small cup of orange juice. i was pissed. WHATEVER SUBCONSIOUS FATHER!
so last night's show was kinda ok. i was told we would go on at like 10:30. But when do we end up going on? 12:15! So i'm sitting there waiting forever to just play because that's why i came. i did not come to get drunk, which is what the rest of the band and evdryone else for that matte4r is doing. well, it is a bar...so i guess they had an excuse. but i am the only 19 year old there so i did not drink, even though my dad suggested i have a beer to calm my nerves. what nerves you ask? good question.
so we go on at midnight, play some songs. i think elliot(the singer/guitarist) is more nervous than anyone bc his tuning skills were horrible. we had to tune down to d on a deftones song, which is fucking easy. and i was tuned down, but he wasnt tuned down right, and he started the song with our different tunings. and i was yelling the whole time "ELLIOT WTF SON WE ARE NOT IN TUNE!" so we had to stop the song, tune, and start over. anyway, other than that the show went well. i don't like bars though. i have a tendency to stare at everyone while playing and all these guys thought i was hitting on them. i was not, i don't like bar dwellers, i just like to see my fucking audience. KTHNX.
then after the show we had to stay and watch the last band, and tim, the drummer, bought me a corona.
THE END

everyone who is living in chicago come to gourmand's on dearborn tommorrow night! me and charlie are going to do a rocking "set" of "all my loving" by the beatles, and "karate" by tenacious d!! if you miss it i will record it, so don't fret. BUT FUCKING COME I'M GONNA MOSH!



GOURMAND
930 PM
BE THERE OR BE GAY

ohhh noooo. i am playing my very first show at the big horse lounge in wicker park in two weeks. AND I AM SO FUCKING FAR FROM PREPARED IT'S FRIGHTENING. oh well.
i just tossed a sweet salad. GET YOUR MIND OUTTA THE GUTTER! a real salad. from panera. i tossed it GOOOD
and now i have two cookies waiting for me to consume them. they are all tucked away in a brown paper panera bag, slowly leaking small amounts of cookie grease. THEY BECKON!
i want to be a food critic like alex someday. HELL i want to BE alex someday. i would even get a sex change. seriously that man is god. fucking teeny boppers can go to hell. there is more to franz than just sexy asses, faces, etc... TTHERE IS ALOT MORE. people don't understand music. i wish music was faceless. it seems all music has an image. fuck image. goddammit. use your ears.
i can't wait to do open mic thhis thursday and play all my loving by the BEATLESSSS.
kbye

man. i've basically been drunk all week. monday i was high, tuesday i was drunk during the day, wednesday i think i was actually sober, thursday night got trashed, friday night got trashed at the bar, and last night was the finale to end all finales. it was fun until i woke up this morning and realized life is a big giant PUNCH IN THE CUNT. ya i said it. i am a vulgar bitch.
well we did end up crashing a bonfire and playing soccer on the beach. i smoked some unfiltered rolled cigarettes and chainsmoked alot of pFUnKZ. now i have a throbbing headache, a sore throat, and i keep falling asleep and waking up to a loss of hearing, my arm going numb, my sight temporarily being gone. not to mention my memory problem is getting worse.
i keep making mistakes
and now i feel majorly guilty
NO MAS DROGAS Y CERVEZA!

Yes I'm lonely wanna die
Yes I'm lonely wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.

In the morning wanna die
In the evening wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.

My mother was of the sky
My father was of the earth
But I am of the universe
And you know what it's worth
I'm lonely wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.

The eagle picks my eye
The worm he licks my bone
I feel so suicidal
Just like Dylan's Mr. Jones
Lonely wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.

Black cloud crossed my mind
Blue mist round my soul
Feel so suicidal
Even hate my rock and roll
Wanna die yeah wanna die
If I ain't dead already
Ooh girl you know the reason why.

to match one of my previous posts
turns out i WAS only kidding myself
funny

http://www.myspace.com/exlibrisrock
the band i play bass in
go listen plzzz

so i'm not depressed anymore. iam out of the rut. things are looking up my friends. Practice with the band has been going well and we wrote this song that is KICKASS. it sounds like a trippy franz ferdinand ripoff. so i just found out we're going to a recording studio on saturday to record. this will be a fun and new experience for me. i hope it is as fun as i think it will be. i'll take pictures. and ALSO i found out ok go is coming to chicago this friday. needless to say i SHAT MY FUCKIN PANTS, YO. i cannot wait. So i've gotten my show details down. they are subject to change. 1. wear my tight hot pink pants, 2. mohawk my hair and/or dye it crazy colors, 3. do roundhouse kicks and/or jumps off of amps and/or bass drum, 4. molest the lead singer, 5. wear crazy makeup done by heather, my makeup artist and 80's music culture conessuir. This concludes my most amazing and interesting livejournal update.

OVER AND OUT CAPTAIN!

DRUNK, HIGH, WHAT HAVE YOU. MAN 2NITE WAAS THE SHIT. I FEEL INCLINED TO WRITE IN THIS FUCKIN' JOURNAL. SO I SAW A RICKY LOOKALIKE ON THURSDAY AND THEN I HAD A DREAM THAT IT WAS RICKY AND I WA S LIKE RICKYYY!. AND HHE RAN. THEN I ATE AT DENNYS. I GUESS DENNYS HAS LOBSTER NOW. IN MY DREAM AT LEAST. THEN I HAD A HARRY POTTER PUMPKIN PASTY. SWEET DREAM, YO. THERE IS COCAINE EVERYWHERE HHERE.

OVER AND OUT